“Becoming the Beloved is the great spiritual journey we have to make.” -Henry Nouwen

Jedidiah’s Journey is a pilgrimage into the heart of the Divine, a journey of becoming the Beloved.


My name is Todd Jacob Holcomb, but when I came of age my father gave me a new name. He called me Jedidiah, which means, “Beloved of Jehovah.”

Since that day I have walked with God across foreign mission fields, through trials of cancer and divorce, in prison ministry, and across Spain on El Camino de Santiago. I journey to know Him more, to partake of His divine nature of love, and because it is in the journey that my faith comes alive.

Theosis is the Orthodox term for “partaking of the divine nature,” a phrase we find in 2 Peter 1:4. In The Jesus Prayer, Fr. David Hester wrote, “[Theosis is] the gradual process by which a person is renewed and unified so completely with God that he becomes by grace what God is by nature.”

Theosis is what I understand to be both the calling and the promise of the Gospel, but I am not sure that it has been my experience.

My journey to becoming the beloved has been riddled with questions that challenge my core beliefs and shake the foundations of my faith. Questions about atonement, victory over sin, and spiritual transformation.


♦ What good is being the Beloved of Jehovah if nothing changes? If I don’t change?

♦ If the key to Christian spiritual transformation is diligence and faithful obedience, rather than the work of the indwelling Holy Spirit, then what actually sets it apart from any other spiritual path?

♦ In a world torn apart by sin and suffering, what difference does the love of God make?

♦ What good is a crucified Messiah if He can’t actually set us free from the bondage of sin?

♦ Why did Jesus have to die? Was his death just the appeasement of an angry god?

♦ What core beliefs of my own have misled my expectations of the Gospel?


I am a pilgrim seeking the heart of the Divine because I want to change. I want the promise of 2 Corinthian 3:18 to be true.


“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”


In my travels, I have learned that Theosis happens in fellowship. If you are also a pilgrim on this journey, then I invite you to join us in seeking the heart of the Divine together. Sign up below to receive updates in your inbox and access to our Facebook group page. It is my hope that this blog will become a place of community, encouragement, and support as we learn together what it means to be


Jedidiah: Loved by God.